LADYMRS

Haven't posted in while due to laziness and everything else, have u ever been so tired and just feel you want to be on lock-down or just take a vacation to the islands somewhere and just recuperate. Lately the idea of going to work even study abroad has crossed my mind it would be awesome,but the thought of leaving what you familiar with and going to the land of the unknown doesn't sit well with me, i'm thinking mommy is getting old and believe i must see her as often as possible and too much of "BANGED UP ABROAD" and "BOARDER SECURITY"episodes don't help either, lol have you seen how those boarder securities don't take nonsense, what if somebody puts drugs in our language and we get caught, yho, i would really just die. i let my fears take control and it leaves me feeling uncertain about the kind of person i am. i read a book( WHO MOVED MY CHEESE) years back it talks about change, how we as individuals are scared  exploring new things,taking risks basically we would rather starve ourselves and not take opportunities that life throws at us.for now i will settle for taking a vacation somewhere quiet with hubby and my princess and maybe after our holiday, when ever that will be, i would have made a concrete decision about my future. xoxo